So here I am at 3.13am on a Thursday morning writing to my blog. I can't sleep for the third night in a row. I don't know why but its starting to get frustrating. So I'm writing to my blog and chatting to my boyfriend on msn. He's a night bird anyway so its no odds to him to be up at this hour but this will just ruin my day tomorrow because I am taking a break from my alarm clock until Monday and no one will call me. So knowing me I will sleep till the early afternoon. I know I could set an alarm but then I will feel as if I have ruined my holiday. Last night I was awake until six am it was beyond a joke but I knew if I left the bed I would become even more awake so I stayed put until sleep came.
I got my hair cut today, infact I think it was the highlight of the day because nothing much else happened it never does around here. Twice today I have been compared to Lily Allen (British Pop Star). I still am unsure wether to take it as a compliment or be quite offended because I think she has googly eyes. I'm certain I dont. On the other hand shes quite skinny and has nice hair. If thats what they meant I'll take it as a compliment. I've been compared to Lily before on numerous occasions. I have have some friends who call me Lily. I dont mind too much anymore, you get kind of used to it. On one occasion I was in a nightclub smoking area talking to some friends when all of a sudden I was pulled away by some guy. Just some randomer who brought me to his friends while I was shouting at him to let me go. When we got near his friends he said "Look lads I told yis it is Lily Allen". Needless to say I was shocked and some of his friends were stunned. Two males friends of mine came to the rescue and asked what was going on. The guy who had removed me from my friends says "Ah sure use two must be the bodygaurds, yis are a bit slow aint yis!"My friends obviously with no clue what was happening were wondering what is this. So I explained to them that the guy thought I was Lily Allen and they were my security. Next thing the two of them were like oh my god you do look like Lily Allen. They ended up in conversation with the guy who was very proud of his achievement in spotting me first. I went off in search of some new friends.
Still not tired even after telling that boring story. I've just told my boyfriend I love writing. He responded with "cool". I feel a bit let down now. I never express my love of writing to people. I don't know why well I kind of do. I find writing is very personal to me. I always wrote for myself. Even if I am the only person who will ever read this, i'll be happy cause I wrote it. I'm not telling any of my friends this blog exists by the way. Its not for them, its for me and strangers!
I was thinking of putting some photos up, I will put one of me anyway and maybe some photos of stuff I like. I'll decide soon. Would that make this all very personal? Is it not already personal. Oh well I guess you dont know me and I dont know you a picture here or there wont hurt. Might even brighten this page up a bit.
Still not tired, what to talk about now. Suppose I could tell you a bit about me and my boyfriend seeing as i'm talking to him at the same time. I met him whilst walking home from a nightclub with my friend Clare. He was with his flatmate and they came accross the two of us sitting on a wall trying to put the world to rights. (I know its not safe to be sitting around on walls late at night but its done now.) His name is Emeka and he is from Nigeria. We got chatting well kind of. I couldnt understand his accent and I wasnt even quite sure that he was speaking English. Turns out he was he was just so shy he was afraid to speak up bless 'em. We stayed talking for a while and swapped numbers. He text me everyday since. I never met up with him for another month and that was by accident when coming off the bus one day. We had disscussed meetin up but never got around to it. But since the day we met on the bus I cant imagine never being able to speak with him anyday. Now were a couple for the past three months and he makes me very happy and I know if I have a problem he will help me out. In fact he's just said to me that he will do some of my study with me on Sunday because I need to do it. Nice of him to think about it.
Emeka you'll never read this but I miss you very much and I cant wait to see you!x
Anyway it's now 4.40am and the tiredness has hit me. I've spent the last hour flitting between this blog and msn. I'm happy sleep is winning now. Talk to you guys tomorrow. Have a safe night wherever you are.
Tru
yea, ive been having trouble sleeping lately also. but what really sucks is when youre there, alone, in the dark, you start thinking because theres nothing else to do. it sucks for me because i start thinking about horrible things, like what i could have done different and you know,the whole "why are we here" thing. those things just eat away at me sometimes. but anyway, i think pictures on your page could go both ways, they can make it more personal because the reader can relate to you a little better by putting a face on things, but it can also make it less personal because without pics it kinda forces the reader to use there imagination and makes for a better read (that was a horrible run-on sentence, i know) plus, you can always just put up pics of lily allen and no one will know the difference lol
ReplyDeleteHa Ha might put up one of her and one of me as a comparison let ye all judge!! Hope you get your sleep back! And try not to think too much, distractions are a great thing!!
ReplyDelete